Tappel Family Word of the Year

I am so very slow about posting anything.  I tend to shut down when I am overwhelmed.  Overwhelmed is how I've been feeling for quite a while.  My husband lost his job in September.  We have both been looking for work and have both been discouraged.  4 1/2 months have passed.  The severance package ends soon.

I know in my head and in my heart that eventually a job or jobs will come.  God is an amazing provider.  But living through the lack is challenging.  I am having to trust what I know to be true but cannot see, hear, touch or feel.  I feel vulnerable and exposed.  I am scared.  I wonder if I am being double-minded, how can trust and fear both live in me?  I just keep taking the fear to God.  Asking him to give me faith, to "help my unbelief." (Mark 9:24)

I read many blogs and Ann Voskamp's www.aholyexperience.com, is one of my favorites.  Today she posted about "a life plan when you're overwhelmed."  She referenced a previous post about a music competition and the wisdom imparted to her daughter when she muddled through a piano piece.  That post is what prompted me earlier this year (month) to decide on a word of the year.   Craig and I decided that our word would be FORWARD.

Whatever this uncertain year holds we will move FORWARD.